i am here and i will be.

This song dredges up a whole world, gone now, but not unpleasant nor distant. A few months ago, we drove through St. Louis at night with the windows down, and the loud flamboyance of the city in summer made the quiet sweetness of this song feel like we'd built our own room in the middle of it all. I listened and felt then what I feel now, which is love, but different. He was a different person to me then than he is now. He was newer and more unpredictable and I have to write this because even though my perception of who he is keeps changing the longer I know him, the love doesn't. I wish I could describe it better, but this is all I have. I guess I thought I'd be used to it by now, but it keeps refreshing itself over and over in electric ways.